46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? Oh gosh. Everything? I'm one of those people that worries a lot about what other people think. So if no one was judging me, I would do so much differently. I knew a girl once who seemed like she did everything the way she wanted, didn't worry about what others thought of her. She seemed so FREE. I mean, maybe that was just a face she wore but I don't think so. And to be free like that? Would be amazing.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? The other night actually! I was wide awake, wishing for sleep, and started to listen to my own breathing to help me fall to sleep. And it actually worked! It's very calming.
48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? I love my loved ones. I love writing and blogging. I love perfect early fall days. I love Monte! I like to think that I express the love that I feel for the things and people that I love. Obviously though, you can never show your love enough.
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? Probably not. Oh, I could look back through this blog, sure. I keep my organizers, so I could go back through. But in the grand scheme of things you should just live for each day, not live so that one day you'll be able to look back and remember some perfect day. It's better to just experience things in the moment after all.
50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? These days, I'm making them for myself. I'm so tired of listening to how people think I need to live my life. It's ridiculous. If I want to go to school to better myself I'm going to school. If I want to get a tattoo on my arm I'm getting a tattoo. If people think I'm not living my life the right way, well, I guess they're lucky they aren't me. Move on.
