Wednesday, January 6, 2010

BIGBADNEWS.

Okay. Here I am. Ready to fess up.

Hi. My name is Krysten. And on Monday I was laid off from my job.

I don't want to go into details. I've been over them enough that they whirl and spin in my head and bring tears to my eyes. I will say that I think it's all very unfair and that it has to do with the friend that I lost on NYE.

And I'll say that I feel as if I've been broken up with. I have been with Caribou for four and a half years. We've had our ups and downs. Its been a rollercoaster. But for the most part Caribou has treated me well. And I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that now it's GONE. And I can't rely on it anymore.

Part of me is absolutely petrified. How do you find a job when you've been laid off from the job you've been with for YEARS? Even if someone looks at my application and gives me an interview how do I get past the words LAID OFF? And meanwhile, how will Dustin and I stay afloat? Things are going to be really, really tight. Really tight. I am scrambling to find ANY job just to have a paycheck. And on top of all that, I'm now out health and dental insurance. And the little voice in the back of my head is saying, "Krysten, you better not get sick. You better not need your wisdom teeth out. YOU HAD BETTER NOT GET PREGNANT." Oh my gosh. Last week life was nearly rosey. This week...

On the other hand, part of me is almost relieved. I know, what? Let me explain. Over the years with Caribou there have been a number of times that I've thought, "Ugh, I can't do this anymore. I need to move on." But I've always stayed. Partly because I didn't feel like dealing with a job hunt. Partly because I KNOW Caribou, I could do the job in my sleep. Partly because, like breaking up with that bad boyfriend, I can still pick out the GOOD things and sometimes they seem GOOD ENOUGH. And so although I wish that I had been able to quit and I wish that I had quit AFTER I already found another job... well, part of me is trying to look at this as a new adventure. Time to do something new. Time to do something scary. Time to move on.

Yes. This is why I've been so mopey and scared. This is why my Twitter and Facebook statuses are all negative. I keep telling myself that it really could be worse and that things will get better. But. I've always been a glass half empty kind of girl. So it's hard to see the good sometimes.

Anyway. That's my BIGBADNEWS.

More soon.


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26 wonderful thoughts:

Emma

That's terrible news. I think it's really healthy that you can look at this as the start of a new adventure although I can imagine it must be pretty scary. I take it there's no way you can claim unfair dismissal or anything like that?

I wish you the best of luck in your job-hunting, interviews etc.

Keep smilin' :)

Chuck

Sorry to hear about the bad news. I don't know you--I've only checked out a few blog posts--but I'm sorry/sad for you. Try to stay positive, and things will eventually turn out right again. (You're probably going to hear that a lot, but it really is the truth.)

Stay positive and as happy as you can (the friend you lost obviously wasn't that special of a friend if they are so easy to let your friendship go--I've learned that lesson the hard way) with the friends and family who are around you.

Chuck

sarah

i'm so sorry! however, like you said, this could just be the beginning of a new adventure for you. i have always believed everything happens for a reason, sometimes just to make myself feel better about a situation, but in the end it always proves to be true. good luck in the job search, hun, i'm sure you will find something wonderful soon!! hugs!

Mrs. Lukie

I am so sorry to hear the news :( I was in your position over a year ago--I was technically "laid off" but I believe there were other motives behind it than 'tough economic times' as I had been told. I was petrified--my hubby and I were merely boyfriend & girlfriend at that point and I had no idea how I was going to make it financially. After allowing myself 2 full days of wallowing in self-pity and being angry/sad, I picked myself up and hit the pavement.

Would you know that I started my new job within 2 weeks of being let go?

This is a new season of life, and you WILL be fine. I know, so trite of me to say, but it's the truth, my dear.

I can't wait to see where this leads you next, because I am positive that it will be something fantastically exciting & wonderful...even better than you can imagine!

((Hugs))

Mara

I am so sorry! But it's good you're trying to stay positive. Everything works out and you are going to find a job you absolutely love! It's scary I know (I'm applying for jobs now too because I have to leave mine at the end of the month). But try and think of it as exciting! You can finally leave that bad boyfriend behind and find your soulmate of a job :)

Smart Ass Sara

Wow- that sucks. Well you know what? If you were fired because of something that your "friend" did/said- then just remember karma is always a bitch. You may not see the effect of it, but know that what goes around comes around.

And when you are in interviews? You can always say what you said- that you've wanted out for years/it wasn't a good fit but you were comfortable. Now they have forced you to do what you want to really do (whatever that is). And tell future employers that you are an optimistic person and am looking for a better fit. :)

my name is lauren.

sorry to hear about your big bad news :(. but i'm sure you'll feel so much better once you get a new job that challenges you. it's hard to leave something where you're comfortable, so maybe this was just the push you needed to find another job you love.

best of luck lovely girl!

Ang

I don't want to repeat what has been said and what you already know is true, but I have to: Stay positive! Maybe, in the mean time put out fliers for cleaning for elderly or shopping for them, for a small fee. Something to maybe make you feel good and earn a few bucks to keep you a little at ease.
Otherwise, hit the job market hard and completely embrace the world in front of you. There are so many jobs out there!!

Being down in the dumps for a few days is okay, because it hurts; don't feel bad about that. Just don't stay that way for too long, it will slowly become 'normal' and eventually eat away at you!

Allyson

Oh that's really bad news. Less bad because it could force you to re-evaluate your life and what would TRULY make you happy, career-wise...but more bad because of the whole money/insurance issue. If you're not following her already, may I suggest reading some of Kallay @ Kallaydoscope's earlier posts (from like around October, I think). She was let go from her manager position at a cafe and she tells the story of trying to find another job while still trying to put gas in her car...with humor, of course.
This is a horrible time to be looking for a job and I feel awful that you're having to go through this. Here's to hoping that it brings you out on the other side with something even better in store! And until then, surely there's a bar in town that has $1 drafts.

Socially Conscious Darling

Sorry to hear that. I know how you feel. I was laid off last year and it sucks.

Stevie

Sooooooo sorry, sweetie. BIG HUGS! I'm sure when everything gets straightened out you'll look back and be glad that it's all over and that you've moved on. I'm just sorry it had to end negatively :-( Thinking of you!

Nicole

Oh nooo. Thats terrible so sorry! But I think you are looking at it the right way its a great opportunity for you to move on! You will be fine hang in there =D

SG

Thanks for the comment on my blog. I'm really sorry to hear this. I was laid off in Sept of '08. When I was interviewing I just told them that due to the economy I was let go. Employers actually aren't allowed to call to find out reasons for termination they can only call to confirm dates of employment.

I wish you the best of luck in your job search.

♥Aubrey

Thank you for the new years wishes. That was the sweetest hun.
I in turn wish you a wonderful new year and let 2010 be a brand new start for you. It's your move...make it happen and don't give up. When you're having a bad day...smile just because...tomorrow can bring sunshine:)

kallaydoscope

I find this highly HIGHLY ironic. Here's why... back in July I started looking for another job. I interviewed with and *loved* Caribou and was preparing to move to Chicago to get my big girl job as a Store Manager. I was all set to move, had all the arrangements made and then it fell through. No call backs. Nothing. We went from talking about salary and start dates to WhoTF is Kallay? In the mean time, my GM at my position at the time quit and set my quit date for me and I was basically forced to quit (i.e. fired, although the paperwork says voluntary).

What is it with this business? UGH! Not good news to start your year with. It's scary. And heartbreaking. But it will turn around.

Just keep your ear to the ground. It certainly brought some things into perspective for me. Good things along with the bad. I wish you all the best in trying to procure future employment. Many thoughts and prayers are coming your way.

tiffany zajas

I'm so sorry to hear about this! Keep your chin up though....

A few years ago I was nannying for a family, and they had to let me go because they couldn't afford someone full-time anymore. I was devastated. I had grown to love that family, and I didn't know what I would do without a steady job. One month later, I was working for a local photographer...and now, I am working my dream job and have my own photography business!

I tell you all this to say...sometimes big changes take place that seem so negative at the time...but such good, positive things can come from them. Take this time to reevaluate what your dreams are. :)

♥♥ tuğçe♥♥

thanks for visiting my blog but sorry to hear bad news i think life will give to u what u deserve eventually it is useless became sad most of the time
wishing u lucky days

Sara E

I'm sure the new year will bring brightness. Have a positive outlook and great things will shine your way :)

Wendy

Sorry to hear about your bad news. I had to terminate my best friend last week because our company is downsizing. None of us knows if it's over, and fear we're next. It's almost harder not knowing, ya know? Anyway, hope you find your true calling soon!

becca

I'm so sorry for your "loss". I know it must be scary and troublesome. I am a huge believer in fate. You must look at this as happening for a good reason or it will pull you under! This is just what you needed to push you to find your dream job which I bet you will (or at least one that will excite you!).

Good luck!

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Kate @ living life to the fullest...

oh no!! So sorry!! I hope you find something quick that you will ove!!!! everything happens for a reason... there must be something better!

Confessions From A Working Mom

I'm so sorry to hear your news... but I think you've already found the silver lining. I have, many times over the past 3+ years, found myself saying those exact same things about my job-- but I don't have the guts to leave, and probably won't. You've been given the chance to find your passion. Grab ahold of this opportunity!!!

~Elizabeth
Confessions From A Working Mom

Sami

Oh my gosh! How scary!! That is such a horrible thing to have to deal with... :( It's scary but hang on to that silver lining that you're going to get a brand new opportunity to work somewhere new, meet new people, and have new experiences. :) I'm thinking of ya!!

Salt

Oh noooooooo. I am so sorry to hear about this. I was laid off from a job once and I know exactly how it feels, but just remember that layoffs aren't your fault and there is really nothing that could have been done to prevent this.

And just think...now you will have an opportunity to find something even more wonderful! I KNOW you will!

stefanie

I am so sorry this has happened to you. I cannot imagine what you must be going through but I hope that things will look brighter for you soon. Thinking of you!

beeskneeslife

So sorry to hear the news. Everything happens for a reason, right? I am trying to stay positive and remind myself that as I find myself in the same position as you as of this week. Email me if you want to chat :)

beeskneeslife@gmail.com