So here's the thing. I don't like doing favors for people. I know. That sounds terrible. But let me explain.
I had a coworker that I did several favors for. He needed me to come in early so he could leave early and I did. He needed me to switch shifts and I did. I liked this coworker and he seemed like a pretty stand up guy so I figured if I was ever in need he'd help me out.
And then I needed him to cover a shift for me. I don't even remember why but I remember calling him and I could tell he wasn't in the mood. But he told me that if no one else could do it to call him back. Lo and behold no one else could. So I called him. He didn't answer. And he never called me back.
After that I decided no more favors. I hate feeling like I help people out and I help them out and then I'm really in need and no one's there. I find this happens mostly in work situations. Outside of work I try to keep people around me that I know will have my back and I have theirs.
I bring this up because I feel like I get a little "hosed" as I like to say. I won't say who or how or why but I will say that I'm pretty annoyed. I basically tried to help someone out even though I typically make it a policy to deal with my own stuff and not worry about other people (again, when it comes to work). But I felt bad and it was such a little thing so hey, whatever. Except it basically ended up kicking me right in the face.
So here I sit. Mud in my face. And all I can think is I'm too old for this. Seriously. I'm 27 and this is high school stuff. When I do you a favor and then you turn around and shove it back in my face don't think I'm not going to call you on it. Because if I don't say something I'm going to walk around seething wishing I had said something.
And that is all. I just needed to get this off my chest. This has absolutely nothing to do with blogging whatsoever but it is my life. And while part of me feels bad for admitting I don't typically do favors for people I also kind of feel like I need to look out for me first. Does that makes sense?